Don't try to make me buy something

I am so Angry right now.
How many times have I heard "you have to spend money to make money." Well I've spent my money and been screwed for it.

People that trade stocks for a living want me to spend money for their training in order to make more money.

People that trade forex want me to "use my line of credit" in order to make more money.

I spent years getting out of DEBT and they want me to go back into debt. It takes at least 1 to 5000 to get started. training is only 3995.

How dedicated are you? How motivated are you? What monthly income do you want?
What seperates you from the pro's the Interbank, Corporations, and Hedge Fund managers.

So the Forex company I trade through only makes money if I am a successful trader. Too bad.

I paid for my electronics training. I paid for my slot tech training (twice) I've already put out way too much for Forex and stock training to no avail. Maybe it really is something I cannot learn. But hey I'm very stubborn. I will continue to attend every webinair, and free training course that I can.

I will "get" it. And I will become successful. I made $75.00 on one account this week and $15.00 on the other. And most of my money is in the one account I cannot get into. So maybe I'll just close that account. They are the ones that keep calling me anyway. "We are here to help" Yeah, for a fee. Like I told the guy If I had an Uncle that traded Forex I'd be at his side every damn day until I was successful.

One of those days

Did you ever have one of those days? You just kinda wonder Why am I alive? My life has not turned out like I wanted. What am I going to do with my self for the rest of my life?

I feel frustrated most of the time. I remember reading a book when I was a kid. The book was about a boy whose home was in a tree. All my life I have wanted to live either deep in the woods or right next to the ocean. So last year we buy a motor home and go out to the lake and the river. The lake was free. But damn the Motor Home never got cool enough. So you need a big SHADY tree to park under. The poor AC cannot handle the desert heat. The other problem was the people coming and going all hours of the day and night. Leaving their trash behind. Whatever happened to pack it in Pack it out. I dispise trashy people.

Same story at the river. It was only free because the campground want'd me to listen to a presentation and then buy a membership. I did not. The campground got quite after 10:00 PM Jetski's suck. And big speedboat's with people running them up and down the river. Finally found a nice quite little cove to swim in and some jackass on his jetski shows up and starts making waves.

So we are planning a trip to the ocean in April. The campground (state park) will be either $35 or $50 depending on the campsite. We shall see how that goes.

I'm not making money and it's pissing me off. My back hurts so I can't go for a run or a walk and that's pissing me off. Hey I think I got most of the crap off my mind. Maybe I can go back to work now.